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Badrabbit
March 30, 2023

I used to believe that since I had been in a long term relationship that I could have a relationship with anyone because I had learned how a relationship works.

That was an overly simplistic view on how the world is. I tend to get along with people. One evening when the daughter’s birth father came to visit to watch her high school graduation we, my partner, he, and I, were talking about college. He said I was the one everybody liked. I’m not combative, am soft spoken. Over the years I’ve slowly learned to work to not get into dominance games with other males.

The problem is that being in a good relationship, where everything works smoothly, gave me the impression I could do this with anyone. The problem is that until this relationship I had a pisspoor track record in relationships. I hadn’t the slightest idea of what a relationship actually was. I was okay in the fucking department; I was miserable at paying attention along with a host of other faults. It was to easy to come to believe that success was entirely skill based.

In our society a relationship is initiated in the dating experience but I’m a total dating novice. I’m still not sure what a date is. My partner says we’ve been on a date and my response is always, that was a date? I’ve gone with women to dinner and such, but they invited me and paid the way. And I was thinking all the time we were just eating out.

I’m afraid that my idea of the perfect date is something like Six Days Seven Nights where Harrison Ford and Ann Heche crash land on a deserted island, there are arguments, there is strenuous activity, and so on. And there have to be pirates, of course.

The funny thing is that the only person where that type of experience has happened is with my partner. One of her comments about our being together is that we have the best adventures.

We have structured our lives so that life together is a daily adventure. There are moments where we look at each other and think it’s great to be able to share this with you.

There are very few people I could live this way with. One woman I loved said she could never live without an air conditioner. My partner and I have never lived in a house with an air conditioner. There was a period in our lives when we lived off the grid—no running water (which included no bathroom), no electricity, no phone, and so on. If anything, that experience brought us closer.

There are very few people willing to do that.

Another person—there was great sex. She was absolutely fearless about public, whatever. But we never talked. I am not sure if we tried, really tried, it would have ever worked. I’m afraid if we sat down and talked and talked, which is how the relationship with my partner began, not in bed, things would have blown up.

That’s the other thing. My partner and I mesh so well, complement each other. There’s a balance of interests. We constantly excite each other in our discussions.

In the end, there are very, very people I could do that with.

Our relationship began with intense friendship. When we had sex the first time my fear was that this was going to destroy that friendship. She says that what she was thinking was on top of everything else he knows how to fuck.

Not a bad way to take things the next step.

Some Vintage Outdoor Nudes, Part 2

Photography
November 17, 2022

This is the second grouping of it’s winter and let’s remember summer photos. This grouping is made up of photos that appear to be from the late 1930s (the first in the grouping) to the late 1940s or very early 1950s. The last two photos are part of a strip set. The prints for these photos are various sizes, all less than 4×5 inches if memory serves me (the originals are packed away in storage). The two women on the beach is amongst my favorites.

Some Vintage Outdoor Nudes, Part 1

Photography

Since winter has begun here, I thought it might be nice to remember summer with a medley of outdoor nudes. These photographs were taken between the late 1930s and late 1950s. Most are 4×5 inch prints (part 2 will include photos that were not 4×5 inch prints). All but the last two photos in this grouping are known to be parts of strip set series of photos and are from the 1950s.

Patterned Gauze

Photography
October 27, 2022

Patterned gauze was used as a prop and/or covering in a number of photographs taken in the late 1920s to just before the war. Studio Manasse in Europe used it effectively. I have three photographs with models draped in patterned gauze. Two photos were taken in the late 1920s to early 1930s by DeMirjian Studio in the United States. A third photograph appears to be later and I believe was also taken in North America. The three prints are 4×5 inches in size.

A Couple of 8×10 Prints

Photography

This is just a quick sampler. While the majority of vintage photographic prints that I own are 4×5 inch in size, I have a few 8×10 prints. Here are two. The more recent is a female model with cat in front of a fireplace with a Frederick’s of Hollywood catalog. I believe the photograph was taken in the late 1950s, possibly early 1960s. On the back of the print the model is named, Ann King. This is possibly the actress who appeared in movies and TV shows from the late 1950s into the late 1960s.

The second photograph is older, a model in an usherette or chorus girl costume from the 1930s. The costume brings to mind some of Charles Guyette’s early photographs where the model sometimes wears a costume (for example, the ponygirl series of photos). The side of this print was punched to go into binder.